Recently divorced for the third time, actress Halle Berry admits she felt "huge failure and huge disappointment" when her marriages fell apart.
â€ś[As] women, we go into marriage thinking itâ€™s going to last forever and that this is our prince on a shiny horse. Thatâ€™s what fairy tales taught me as a kid... and Iâ€™m kind of antiâ€“fairy tales today,â€ť Berry confessed at the 2017 City Summit and Gala in Los Angeles on Saturday.
Berry and Martinez in 2014.
The Oscar winner finalized her divorce from fellow actor Olivier Martinez in December. The couple, who were married for two years, have one son together. Prior to that relationship, Berry, 50, was in a long-term relationship with model Gabriel Aubry with whom she has a daughter, Nahla, though the two never married.
â€śIâ€™ve often felt guilty and responsible. Iâ€™ve suffered a lot of pain and anguish,â€ť "The Call" actress continued.
Berry and Aubry in 2009.
Berry was also married to baseball player David Justice from 1992 to 1997 and singer Eric BenĂ©t from 2001 to 2005.
When Berry and Martinez announced their plan to divorce in 2015, Justice took to Twitter with harsh words for his ex: "Yup..Me,Eric,Gabriel and Olivier were all her 'Knight in Shining Armor',until it ends..Then we all become the worst guys in history," he wrote in a tweet that has since been deleted.
BenĂ©t backed up the athlete tweeting "My man at @23davidjustice is tweeting some truth dis' mornin'!"
Justice later apologized for the tweets saying he never intended to bash the "Monster's Ball" star.
My intention was not to bash Halle,as I specifically said that Halle has NEVER verbally said it.I just wished that when the rumors were out
â€” david justice (@23davidjustice) November 3, 2015
Though Berry lost her faith in fairy tales, the actress has found a new perspective. â€śIn every one of those situations, as hard â€” and sometimes embarrassing â€” as it was, I learned so much about myself,â€ť she said. â€śThose relationships provided me with lessons that got me to where I am right now. For that, Iâ€™m grateful. But it has been hard. Itâ€™s been a difficult part of my life.â€ť
And Berry hopes those lessons are being passed down to her kids Nahla and Maceo. â€śI say lots of things, but I think whatâ€™s more important is that my children watch what I do," she said. "Iâ€™m more mindful of how I live my life and what they see me do.â€ť