There was this feeling at the pit of my stomach that I just had to get a pregnancy test. My woman's intuition told me so and you just can't ignore that. So I took one. OK, maybe five. I needed to be sure. I went into the bathroom, did the deed and waited. Staring at this stick, like a magic wand ready to tell me my future, I began to panic. What if it says YES? What if it says NO? I was worried I wouldn't know how to react. So I waited for what seemed like half a day. And then, after three minutes I glanced down at the magic wand and it read "pregnant."
I was expecting a marching band, some fireworks and maybe Oprah to appear. I mean, this really is a magical moment. I sat there not knowing what to do. There were no instructions, there were no tips or how-to's, and there were certainly no fireworks. I was scared. Not so much about growing a baby, but scared about what was going to happen to my body.
Will I gain weight?
Will I be sick?
Will I lose the figure I have been so proud to call my own?
It took awhile to actually start looking like I was pregnant. I had the typical basketball bump. I slowly watched the scale increase, my pants size get bigger and people around me start to really notice that I was "getting rounder."
It was a little discouraging (note: I was reaching my two month marker in training for a half marathon knowing full well I wouldn't be able to run it) but it was incredible. I was growing a mini-me inside of me! When the reality finally hit I was fully accepting of the adventure ahead regardless of the toll on my body. I ate better, I ran more and I even submitted a portfolio to become a pregnant model. I wasn't this confident even before I got pregnant. Maybe it was the hormones, the (potentially) excessive chocolate consumption, or the fact that I was glowing. Whatever it was, I was feeling on top of the world.
Though I had some low days, and I mean low days, I stuck them out and kept up with a positive mindset. Here is how I did it:
1. Knew I was creating life (This IS magical)
2. Kept up with my health (eating well kept me feeling trim and sexy)
3. Openly shared the hardships with close friends. They are incredible support systems.
4. Took advantage of people opening the door, giving up a seat, or adding me to the front of the line at my favourite breakfast spot.
5. Knew that my dress size was not a number to be judged by.
6. That it was OK to not see my toes. As it was a blessing to not have to see those swollen feet anyway!
7. Heels were more comfortable than flats
8. There would just be some bodily functions you can't control and that's OK (blame the baby ;)
Then, on August 17, 2012 my son was born. Wow. Holy friggin' emotional mess. This doesn't compare to the moment the magical wand told me I was having this baby. It doesn't compare to the many times my husband said I was a GORGEOUS pregnant women. And it certainly doesn't compare to the time only three months after his birth that I fit into my skinny jeans again. (Wowzer!)
The toll on my body will forever remain, but my heart has grown bigger and my confidence much stronger knowing that I created the most beautiful life I could possibly imagine.
Pregnancy is not easy. It can be exhausting, disgusting, boring and a pain-in-the-ass. But what it should not be is a phase in your life to feel down on how you look. YOU are beautiful no matter what. Whether my words mean anything or not, you are in the process of creating something phenomenal: another life.
Hilary Duff posted a picture of her painted up (and bare) bump on Twitter during the holiday season. The actress <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/03/22/hilary-duff-baby-boy-luca-cruz-comrie-mike-comrie_n_1294739.html">gave birth to her first child</a>, son Luca Cruz Comrie, in March 2012.
Amber Rose took to Twitter<a href="https://twitter.com/DaRealAmberRose/status/247685961947955200"> to share this photo</a> of her blossoming baby bump on September 17. She is <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/09/06/amber-rose-pregnant-wiz-khalifa-baby_n_1840309.html">expecting her first baby</a> with fiance Wiz Khalifa later this year.
Megan Fox put her baby belly on full display as she sported a leopard-print bikini and a flowing maxi skirt while celebrating her second anniversary with husband Brian Austin Green in Hawaii in June. This will be the first baby for Fox. Green has a 10-year-old son, Kassius, with his ex Vanessa Marcil.
Alanis Morissette took to Twitter to show off a photo of her bare baby bump covered in Henna tattoos. The singer <a href="http://www.people.com/people/article/0,,20446869,00.html">gave birth</a> to son Ever, with husband Mario Treadway in December 2010.
Gisele Bundchen <a href="http://www.x17online.com/celebrities/gisele_bundchen/gisele_pregnant_bikini_costa_rica_tom_brady_baby_bump_benjamin_photos_072412.php">showcased her growing baby bump</a> in a silver bikini in Costa Rica in July 2012. The model and her husband Tom Brady are expecting their second child together later this year.
Camila Alves flaunted her baby bump in a bikini while vacationing with her husband Matthew McConaughey and their two kids, Levi, 4, and Vida, 2, in Ibiza, Spain, in August 2012. She's one hot mama!
Marisa Miller, who is used to modeling bikinis for Victoria's Secret, <a href="http://celebritybabies.people.com/2012/09/10/marisa-miller-pregnancy-blog-third-trimester/">shared a photo</a> of her bare bump in September. She also <a href="https://twitter.com/marisamiller/status/246334591747629056">tweeted a photo</a> of her in a bikini, as well! The model is expecting her first child -- a boy! -- with husband Griffin Guess in early December.
Vanessa Lachey and her husband Nick Lachey posted a picture of her bare bump weeks before they <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/22/nick-lachey-vanessa-lachey-baby-boy-camden-john_n_1823217.html">welcomed their first child</a>, son Camden John, on September 12.
Alessandra Ambrosio showed off her bikini bump with a little help from her daughter, Anja, before the model <a href="http://www.facebook.com/AlessandraAmrosioGeorgia/photos?ref=ts">welcomed her son</a>, Noah, in May 2012.
Tori Spelling strutted her pregnant stuff in a bikini while spending Memorial Day on the beach with her family in May 2011. Spelling gave birth to daughter Hattie in October 2011 and immediately got pregnant again, <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/08/31/tori-spelling-welcomes-baby-boy_n_1845449.html">welcoming son Finn</a> on August 30, 2012.
Jessica Alba bikini'ed up her baby bump while on holiday in Cabo San Lucas on May 13, 2011. She gave birth to <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/08/14/haven-garner-jessica-alba_n_926791.html">her second daughter</a>, Haven Garner, with husband Cash Warren in August 2011. Alba also has a 4-year-old daughter, Honor Marie.
David Beckham <a href="https://www.facebook.com/Beckham">captured this candid photo</a> of pregnant wife Victoria Beckham while she was pregnant with their daughter, Harper Seven, now one years old.
A pregnant Miranda Kerr posed nude for <a href="http://www.vogue.com.au/"><em>Vogue</em> Australia</a> before she <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2011/01/12/miranda-kerr-baby-orlando-bloom_n_807906.html">welcomed her son</a>, Flynn, with hubby Orlando Bloom in January 2011. The Australian model also bared her bump in a more intimate shoot for <em>W</em> Magazine.
A pregnant Nicole Richie rocked a bikini when she was expecting her first child, daughter Harlow, now 4. She has since welcomed a son, Sparrow, 3, with her husband Joel Madden.
Britney Spears sported her baby bump in a green bikini while enjoying some rest and relaxation with her sister Jamie Lynn Spears in March 2005. The pop star gave birth to her first child, Sean Preston, that September. She and her husband Kevin Federline welcomed their <a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/01/12/britney-spears-kids-sean-preston-jayden-gymnastic-fun_n_1202740.html">second son</a>, Jayden James, in September 2006 before getting divorced in July 2007.
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