It's difficult to talk about what bothers you. But it's those very things that can nag and fester over time. When you're finally able to bring it up, it can come out in blurts or gushes, in anger or tears. Let's talk about the elephant in the room: Jian Ghomeshi, former host of Q. A lot of people have been wondering what it's like to be inside the CBC right now. I want to share what it's been like for me. When the Jian debacle ripped through the Broadcast Centre, it was impossible to ignore. Q, the flagship program, was torn apart and tarnished. In the hallways and elevators, people are shell-shocked, uncertain of what to do or say or how to handle it.