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How it Really Feels to Turn 40

The Purple Fig | Posted 08.19.2014 | Canada Living
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My body is older, and although I'm more fit now than I was in my 20s, my muscles and bones and forehead and liver will never reverse in time to what they once were. And then there's the whole, ever closer to my earthly demise thing.

The Balance Between Relaxed '70s Parenting and Modern Meddling

The Purple Fig | Posted 08.05.2014 | Canada Living
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Here we are now in 2014 with the pendulum having swung so far to one side that our kids are actually suffering from our over-involved parenting style. By looking back through history, we can see what works and what doesn't, but usually it's a trip down our own memory lane that can guide us best.

Why I Wish I Was Needier

The Purple Fig | Posted 07.16.2014 | Canada Living
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Yes, that's right: I wish sometimes that I was needier. In recent months, I've come to a very blunt awareness about just how independent I had become in my four years as a single person. Moreover, I can reflect today and acknowledge just how much society places value on that independence. Is our system flawed.

3 Key First Steps To A Fast Post-Baby Body Recovery

The Purple Fig | Posted 07.14.2014 | Canada Living
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The good news with all of these steps is you can start right away. The exercises in step 3 are gentle, similar to a meditative breathing (they require a great deal of concentration!) Give your body the time and proper tools it needs to recover. Connecting with your muscles will give you the strength and confidence to get back to your favourite activities, whatever they may be!

Letter to My Future Self (I Hope You're Still Fun!)

The Purple Fig | Posted 07.14.2014 | Canada Living
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Dear Old-Hot Stuff, I am writing you this letter to remind you of a few things that you may forget along the way. I know that experience and age-weight may provide you with the assumption that you know it all and you don't need advice from your 35-year-old self. But memory-loss aside, you may have gotten a little too fixed in your ways to remember a life, well let's just say, a little less-lived.

I Pushed Away the Love of My Life and He Won't Come Back

The Purple Fig | Posted 07.20.2014 | Canada Living
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I threw away the only man who ever loved me, who I was in love with. I realize that this statement must elicit a bunch of questions. Ten years later, I still can't process, make sense of, or come to peace with this loss. I am alone and lonely, so much that it is slowly but surely eating me alive, day in and day out, from the inside out.

Do All Only Children Secretly Wish For Siblings?

The Purple Fig | Posted 06.10.2014 | Canada Living
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Do only children pine for siblings? Most of the parenting world seems to think so. Parent-friends have warned me of the perils of leading my son down the dark and isolating path travelled by the only child. Armed with some incentive to find the truth, I began a very casual and non scientific study.

Cheating Made Me a Different Person From the Very First Kiss

The Purple Fig | Posted 06.01.2014 | Canada Living
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It can be really easy to live with a secret. Three and a half years ago I was living in Toronto's East end, long time boyfriend and cat at home. It wasn't long before I met someone who did more than wolf-whistle out a car window. One night a few of us went out dancing. Mid-twist he kissed me and all my senses were on fire. But innocent walks turned into conversations tinged with sexual innuendo. Alleyway makeout sessions, then sex -- anywhere we could. I found myself turning into this seemingly new person. People who have never cheated ask how you can do it mentally, emotionally. It's different for everyone. But what they don't understand is that it gets to the point where recklessness overpowers all logic and all sense of "right."

My Sister Gave Me Her Eggs: A Journey Through Fertility

The Purple Fig | Posted 05.31.2014 | Canada Living
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When I finally got married at 37, I was worried that I wouldn't be able to get pregnant. But it happened in a flash on our honeymoon and we had a son. I was one of my only friends who openly wanted a second child. So began the trying; a summer of love. Which then turned into a fall of resentment. Now my sister and I are in the waiting cubicle of an IVF suite in downtown Toronto.

My Crush Invited Me For Group Sex, Should I Go?

The Purple Fig | Posted 05.07.2014 | Canada Living
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I had tried yoga, Buddhism, Kabbalah. But I had always fallen short, still searching, still not whole. Trying so many new things, while still having so much sex, but changing nothing in that arena except maybe the guy or the country, led me to reevaluate. Maybe tantra wasn't crazy. Maybe it was actually what had been missing...

How I Was Rewarded For Having Only Two Sexual Partners

The Purple Fig | Posted 04.21.2014 | Canada Living
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I've had only two sexual partners in my life and being diagnosed with abnormal cervical cells doesn't feel like the best way to be repaid. Women are constantly being shamed about their bodies and how they use them and to think even a lack of proper usage can result in the same shame and disconcerted feelings about female sexuality.

Valentine's Day Is More Than a Dinner Reservation

The Purple Fig | Posted 04.16.2014 | Canada Living
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If Valentine's Day is the celebration of love, then we shouldn't be fussing about where to go for dinner with our partner or feeling lonely because we're not celebrating with someone. It should be the day of reminding us that love is all around, all the time, everywhere

No B.S. Guide to Surviving Valentine's Day

The Purple Fig | Posted 04.14.2014 | Canada Living
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Valentine's Day: love it or hate it, there's nothing you can do to stop it. To avoid the potential stress, disappointment and financial burden such an occasion can bring, here are five no bullshit tips for surviving V-Day like a boss.

I Couldn't Stay in a Loveless Marriage

The Purple Fig | Posted 03.24.2014 | Canada Living
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After living with someone who never let go of the opportunity to insult or debase me, honestly I had started finding it hard to laugh or grin for that matter. My so called "better half" questioned my existence throughout my marriage and so along the way I started questioning myself. After the separation, as the days turned to nights, I felt a change in myself.

For the Sake of Getting Laid

The Purple Fig | Posted 03.04.2014 | Canada Living
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I can't have sex without a connection. True story. It has dawned on me, within the past few years, that is just isn't something that's going to happen...

2014 Dating Resolutions You Must Consider...From a Guy

The Purple Fig | Posted 03.02.2014 | Canada Living
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One of the most common complaints I hear from my girlfriends is how much they hate going out on dates. The men they meet -- if they even bother to meet them -- are all wrong. So just in time for the New Year, I thought I'd provide my top picks for 2014 dating resolutions for the single woman

Your Career Ain't Over Till It's Over

The Purple Fig | Posted 02.12.2014 | Canada Living
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A better day comes along, and I tell myself that it's not that I'm unwilling to commit, it's that I haven't found my career true love yet. I am unwilling to settle. I'm making progress, improving and learning with each step I take, getting stronger at understanding what I love and what I won't grit my teeth through anymore.

I Don't Care About Kim Kardashian

The Purple Fig | Posted 02.09.2014 | Canada Living
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Yes, looking at a butt selfie from Kim Kardashian is entertainment and sure, we need the escape sometimes, but I'm wondering if our society can make a little 2014 New Year's resolution: have a little more balance. Maybe a little less coverage of her and a bit more of someone we can relate to and learn from.

The Colourful Yarn That Binds Me to Syria

The Purple Fig | Posted 01.23.2014 | Canada Impact
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I was given the opportunity to visit the Olive Tree Refugee Camp in Atmeh Syria. All the little girls approached me with their unique knitted creations. When I had to say my goodbyes, one woman voiced her concerns about the lack of yarn to work with. That same night, I wrote out the plan for Tight-Knit Syria, a project to help supply yarn, as well as establish an online store to sell knitted products from the Olive Tree Camp.

Separating Insecurity from Reality

The Purple Fig | Posted 12.23.2013 | Canada Living
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When my son was 18 months old my babysitter breezed into my home office reveling at the fact that she had walked him all the way to a play centre, the...

My Awkward One Night Stand With a Friend

The Purple Fig | Posted 01.23.2014 | Canada Living
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I was determined to sleep with my long-time friend, Jake. How would I know if I was really attracted to him if I didn't try? It was odd and unromantic. His place was a mess, his bed was unruly and his gentlemanly ways went out the window. The next thing I know, he is unnerved. His condom supposedly wasn't on securely...

How My Kids Learned to Feed Themselves By Themselves

The Purple Fig | Posted 12.01.2013 | Canada Living
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When my arms were elbow-deep in the toilet this morning, I realized something. The kids called: "Momma, can you please get me a snack?" "Mommy, find my soother!" I kept saying, "You can do it! I'll help you in a second!" After a few minutes of this, they stopped asking. It got very, very quiet. I peeked out of the bathroom.

How Letting Go of the Perfect Life Changed My Life

The Purple Fig | Posted 11.26.2013 | Canada Living
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In a moment, my view of the world and its expectations of me changed. As a teen someone said to me, "You cry at the drop of a needle." I promised myself right then and there that I would stop being emotional; I would be strong. If I wore my best poker face the world couldn't shake me. I rejected who I truly was, and my freedom to express that. But then life got complicated.

Affairs Never End Well - Mine Was No Different

The Purple Fig | Posted 11.25.2013 | Canada Living
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When I got an unnecessary text from him, I smiled. And while that was interesting and made me feel powerful, it also made me sad. I knew how it would end and it had not even begun. I made references to his wife, to him not being available in a way that made me feel respectable. But the sexual tension rose, and the encounters became more and more heated. He continuously told me he wanted me.

Is This a Date? My Struggle to Make Female Friends

The Purple Fig | Posted 10.21.2013 | Canada
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I have been with my husband for 13 years, seven of which we have spent as a married couple. Roughly five-and-a-half years ago I started dating. Women. It may sound like I succumbed to something akin to the seven-year-itch, let my hair down and started to experiment a little, but the truth is rather more mundane: I joined my first baby group.