You can't just give up because you haven't found love or met people who live their lives based on appearances or fear. You know that. Tell yourself: "I deserve to be loved. I deserve happiness and I will be patient and relentless in my pursuit of both." Say it again.
Continued communication with someone who is not interested in you will keep you in purgatory. You're hanging onto a thread of hope for a possible future relationship. This hope doesn't exist. It is an ILLUSION! What you really need is time to grieve the loss of someone you never had.