Stephanie Gilman
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Stephanie Gilman is a 28-year-old woman who lives in Toronto with her husband. She was recently diagnosed with breast cancer and has been candidly sharing her experience on her blog. Her favourite thing about having cancer is getting packages in the mail, and her least favourite thing is everything else. You can find her on twitter @steph_rebecca.

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How Cancer Changed My Plans for Motherhood

(3) Comments | Posted May 29, 2015 | 6:02 PM


I always took it for granted that I would, someday, have children.

I never grappled with the decision of whether or not motherhood was for me, or thought of what my life might be like without kids. I made mental notes of my...

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It's Not a Pink Ribbon That Reminds Me of Breast Cancer

(1) Comments | Posted October 21, 2013 | 1:30 PM

So many anniversaries lately. So many "at this time last year, I was doing X, remember?"

October 19th was one year since I bid adieu to my breasts. One year since the cancer treatment really began.

There hasn't been one day since then that I don't think about my breasts....

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Everyone With Cancer Suffers From Scanxiety

(0) Comments | Posted July 13, 2013 | 5:19 PM

Back in November, before starting my chemo for breast cancer, I had some scans to get a better idea of what was going on in other parts of my body. The hope being, of course, that nothing was going on. Just regular healthy human stuff.

Everything appeared to be okay,...

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Cancer and Thunder: Learning Life's Hard Lessons

(0) Comments | Posted May 23, 2013 | 6:35 PM

It's pouring outside really hard right now and thundering loudly. Whenever it thunders, I think of how my mom used to tell me not to be scared, because it was the sound of my grandfather bowling in heaven. I would fall asleep, listening to the booming thunder, imagining my grandpa...

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Cancer Won't Ruin My Summer

(0) Comments | Posted May 6, 2013 | 1:10 PM

This past winter was a particularly miserable one for the city of Toronto, where I live. Cold, windy, grey, and what appeared to be never-ending. I often felt as though the weather outside was mimicking my own misery and sickness. That spring would come as I started to emerge from...

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It's My Cancer And I'll Cry If I Want To

(3) Comments | Posted April 5, 2013 | 1:25 PM

Since my cancer diagnosis, I have noticed that society puts a strange amount of pressure on cancer patients to be positive and stay upbeat at all times. Keep your chin up. Think positively. It's all about your attitude. These are the messages that seem to be almost instinctual when addressing...

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Cancer Taught Me to Live in the Moment

(3) Comments | Posted February 22, 2013 | 12:03 PM

For as long as I can remember, I have been an obsessive planner. I love to make plans, to organize, to prepare. And I'm quite good at it, too. Long-term goals, schedules. These are things I like. A fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants girl, I am not.

With my cancer diagnosis, a lot of...

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The Time I Shaved my Head (and It Kinda Sucked)

(11) Comments | Posted February 4, 2013 | 5:53 PM

I never in my life thought I would type the following sentence and have it be true: I shaved my head.

My hair started to shed. Slow at first, and then faster. I couldn't resist pulling at it. Maybe I'm making it all up, and it's not actually coming out....

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"I Have Cancer. F**K."

(24) Comments | Posted January 30, 2013 | 9:58 AM

Here's the deal:

A few months back, I found a lump in my breast. Where the hell did it come from? How did I not feel it before? I showed my husband. I showed my sister. I Googled "what does a tumour feel like." Despite all I read that told...

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