01/29/2015 12:46 EST

Bieber Video Apology: 'I'm Not Who I Was Pretending To Be"

With a seemingly endless list of antics, court cases and lawsuits in recent years leaving many shaking their heads, Justin Bieber might be finally turning a corner if a new video he posted is any indication.

TMZ reports Bieber posted the roughly 100-second video after an appearance on the Ellen show to his Twitter account late Wednesday evening (Jan. 28). The website reports sources said Bieber "kinda bombed" during the appearance while seeming quite nervous and giving DeGeneres short one-word replies.

"So I just wanted to make a video because I wanted to express how I feel right now," Bieber says in a rather low voice in a rather darkened room. Bieber said he appeared on Ellen earlier in the day which he says was "amazing and a lot of fun" before wishing the talk show host a happy birthday. The show, which airs today, Jan. 29, was slated to include appearances by Sam Smith and Kanye West.

However, Bieber knows it didn't go as swimmingly as he hoped.

"But I was really nervous and I think I was nervous because I'm just, I was afraid of what people are thinking about me right now," Bieber said. "I didn't want to come off arrogant or conceited. Basically how I've been acting the past year, year and a half. I'm not who I was pretending to be. Why I say pretending is often we pretend to be something you're not as a cover up of what we're truly feeling inside."

The singer continued to discuss the last few years while adding he sincerely cares about people.

"There was a lot of feelings going on in there, um, just being young and growing up in this business is hard, growing up in general is hard, but yeah, I just felt awkward up there. I felt like people were judging me. And I really want people to know how much I, how much I care about people. How I'm not that person that says, 'I don't give a f--k.' I'm not that kid. I'm a person who genuinely cares. Although what's happened in the past has happened, I just want to make the best impression on people and be kind and loving and gentle and soft. Although people can call me a softie, that's how my mom raised me."

As for the appearance DeGeneres tweeted the following:

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