09/07/2016 07:39 EDT | Updated 09/08/2016 04:29 EDT

Dear Maddie...

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By: Emily, Maddie's best friend

Dear Maddie,

You've been gone over 500 days and not a day goes by that I don't think of you, don't miss you. That's because, in a lot of ways, you never went away and you never will. There are times, I feel you're still right here, with me. And you always will be.

There are times I miss you so much, it makes me want to scream. There are times I get so angry, it makes me want to punch a wall. There are times I remember how we laughed like idiots and it makes me smile. There are times I get so sad, I just want to hug you again. There are times I just want to not miss you anymore, to forget, but it doesn't last. I wish it would because it would be easier not to miss you, not to be so sad. It would be easier but it wouldn't be true. I do miss you and I am sad.

When I was little, I would come home from nursery school every day and tell my parents about "my new best friend". My dad said I made so many new best friends, he couldn't keep track of them all. That changed when you became my best friend. I have other friends and I'll make new friends but I'll never have another best friend that compares to you.

I love you and I miss you so much.



Frame Of Mind is a new series inspired by The Maddie Project that focuses on teens and mental health. The series will aim to raise awareness and spark a conversation by speaking directly to teens who are going through a tough time, as well as their families, teachers and community leaders. We want to ensure that teens who are struggling with mental illness get the help, support and compassion they need. If you would like to contribute a blog to this series, please email


The Maddie Project is a community effort in support of youth struggling with depression and other mental health related concerns. Driven by community collaboration and events, the project's goals are to raise awareness by sparking conversations about youth depression and mental health concerns as well as to help provide uninhibited access to support for youth and their families.

The Maddie Project was founded in April 2015 in memory of Madeline Grace German Coulter. To date the project has engaged 100s of thousands in active conversations around youth mental health and has raised over $1 million dollars in partnership with North York General Hospital Foundation towards the development of Maddie's Healing Garden and support of other child and adolescent mental health services at North York General Hospital.

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