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Mommy Blogger Says There's 'More To Life' Than A Perfect Body

05/05/2017 12:39 EDT

Australia native Brittany Noonan wears many hats.

She's a health and wellness trainer, fashion lover and wife. But most importantly, she's a mother.

And she's all too familiar with the pressures moms face when it comes to having the perfect post-baby body.

"There was a time in my life when I wanted to die, I did not want to live. I wanted to escape, run away, disappear - I didn't want to be me all because of my body," she captioned an Instagram photo of herself with her daughter in late April. "I hated the vessel that carried me through life so much that I no longer wanted to exist because I felt like I couldn't escape the trap I felt like I was in physically and mentally."

• REFLECTION• There was a time in my life when I wanted to die, I did not want to live. I wanted to escape, run away, disappear - I didn't want to be me all because of my body. I hated the vessel that carried me through life so much that I no longer wanted to exist because I felt like I couldn't escape the trap I felt like I was in physically and mentally. This photo would have destroyed me if I saw it when I was that girl because nothing was ever good enough ,my only purpose in life then was to be what I thought was a better looking, skinnier version of myself because I thought that meant people would like me and I would be confident, happier and free of all my self hate and mental issues . This weekend I was confronted with some triggers to my old self and it gave me time to reflect on how far I have grown & changed & how lucky I am that I took charge and sought the help I desperately needed to turn my life around. I am so lucky to have met the man of my dreams who supported me and held my hand through the toughest times during my intense psychological therapy journey and was gifted the blessing of having a beautiful daughter who changed my world and gave me a purpose and reason to once and for all learn to love the person I am and stop focusing on my reflection. Through learning to love who I am , finding a purpose (to help and motivate others) I actually now love my body and respect it for allowing me to walk, run, birth my daughter, hold her in my arms and in fact just to live my life every day. Now that I can see there is more to life I will forever be grateful that I did not let my mental illness win because if I did there would be no Milena & a world with out her would be a world with a little less sparkle. ✨ If you are struggling on any level with self hate I want you to know there is help and there is a way out. This resonates so deeply with me. "I hope one day your human body is not a jail cell, Instead it's a sunny 2pm garden with daisies thriving because of self love." I know this is deep but it's a subject I am passionate about discussing & changing for women every where in a time we are constantly bombarded with pressure to be someone else.

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"This photo would have destroyed me if I saw it when I was that girl because nothing was ever good enough, my only purpose in life then was to be what I thought was a better looking, skinnier version of myself because I thought that meant people would like me and I would be confident, happier and free of all my self hate and mental issues," she continued.

Noonan then went on to explain that she began to reflect on this low point after she was triggered. And while the mama doesn't specify what exactly caused this, she said she's very grateful to "the man of her dreams" who held her hand through therapy and blessed her with daughter Milena.

Similarly, mother-of-three Kelly Diane Howland also spoke up about body pressure after a woman offered her a postpartum weight loss product while she was shopping in Target.

"We all know that this culture hammers into postpartum women a lot of physical insecurity about their bodies after delivering their miracles from their wombs," she wrote in a Facebook post. "I don't think I have to spell out for a single woman the cultural pressure that postpartum mothers face regarding their physical appearance."

"My body doesn't need to be wrapped or squeezed or changed. It needs to be valued and revered for the incredible life it just brought into this world."

Nonetheless, Noonan has found a healthy way to feel comfortable in her own skin again and shares some her at-home fitness tips with other moms.

• AT HOME CIRCUIT • You have to watch to the end to see our celebration dance & Millie's squat technique!😍😍 45 secs work/15 rest Kneeling kickbacks (swap 1/2 way) Arm and leg reach (swap 1/2 way) Side lunge with leg lift (swap 1/2 way) Step ups Squats - Millie can teach you her technique 🙊 (holding baby or any weight) Celebration dance with Bebe!👯 REPEAT 3-5times!!! . . . . . . . #fitness #fitmum #fitmom #activemum #postpartum #postpartumfitness #fitnessblogger #workout #mumbod #fitchick #instagood #womensfitness #igmums #mumlife #bbg #bbgmums #mummyblogger #weightlossmotivation #motivation #training #activewear #fitspo #mummyanddaughter #fitmomsofig #instafit #instagood #motheranddaughter #vlog @fit_moms_of_ig

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She even offers ways you can incorporate your child into your workouts.

So brilliant.

• MAMA + TODDLER WORKOUT• Can't get a workout in because your little one is crawling all over you? Perfect use them as your weight and to help your core stability! Try this one: 40 seconds work/20 rest Kickbacks Piggy back squats Hip openers Piggy back glute lifts Ankle taps REPEAT 3-5 TIMES! As a finisher of you need one try 50 air squats and 50 single leg drops. And don't forget your celebration dance! Exercise with your little one can be fun. Millie and I have a mix of cartoons and toys and snacks and even some tunes on to help keep her entertained while I do these workouts at home. Don't take exercise so seriously and you will soon see it can fit in your life xx ❤️ Tights: @leggings_studio_au . . . . . . @fit_moms_of_ig #mumbod #mumlife #postpartum #postpartumbody #postbaby #igfitness #weightlossmotivation #lornajane #instafit #fitness #fitmum #fitmom #mummyblogger #bbg #motherhood #bbgmums #postpartumrecovery #pregnancyblog #instamum #igmotherhood #instafitsociety #postpartumfitness #fitnessblogger #lifestyleblogger #goldcoastmums #motivation #workout #mumbod #activewear #bbgmums

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